perfect muse

2004-06-16T23:51:00.000-04:00

la la

2002-06-21T22:29:00.000-04:00

i am so envious...this layout is simply amazing. @_@ i always feel so inspired after looking at different people's design skills. looking at this one especially makes me want to create a layout featuring ayumi. :D yes, i want my own domain.

2002-06-12T21:23:00.000-04:00

i have been amused all day by this harry potter rpg journal. the community itself is amusing, but each 'character' keeps their own personal journal as well, to go along with the plot of the community, and it's so entertaining. i especially enjoyed 'ron's' journal.

and, i just couldn't resist.

*giggles* ^~

2002-05-20T01:33:00.000-04:00

i saw this on someone's journal so i decided to do it myself. some of the information is slightly personal in nature, but i don't mind sharing. ^_^

100 things you may or may not know about me...

1. i guess i'm lucky to have been born; apparently, my parents weren't planning on having another child after my sister and brother were born.

2. i bit the tip of my brother's nose off when i was very young, after he threatened to poke my eye out.

3. my middle name is joy, which i don't really like. i have always thought it was too 'girly'.

4. i was extremely shy when i was younger, and only had one or two close friends.

5. i used to have trouble telling people "no" out of fear they would hate me if i was not always nice to them.

6. i often felt like i was not on the same 'level' as the rest of my friends.

7. i attended a very liberal private school when i was younger, which i think contributed to my weirdness. ^^;

8. at said school there were no grades given and students called the teachers by their first name.

9. i was always ahead of my peers in all other subjects except for math.

10. i still hate math. i can't even add up groceries without a calculator. ><

11. i dislike math, but i love science. i always wanted to be a veterinarian or a marine biologist when i was younger, but i knew i could not handle the math courses needed for education in those fields.

12. i've always loved art and drawing, which i feel got me interested in web design.

13. i'm too much of a perfectionalist, and am often my own harshest critic.

14. when i was younger, i was called an 'elf' since i had extremely long hair and small pointy ears.

15. i occasionally wear skirts and dresses, but i prefer pants and shorts for comfort.

16. when i was younger i developed a weight problem that continually bothred me, but i lacked the motivation to get in shape.

17. i've finally started to exercise regularly and have begun losing the weight i've been trying to get rid of.

18. even though i know i shouldn't, i often put unattainable standards on myself and wish i could resemble the waif-thin, airbrushed models in magazines. -_-;

19. i've often felt inadequate because my sister has never had weight problems, and is quite thin.

20. my sister is almost my opposite; she's outgoing, has many friends, and has a degree in biology.

21. i have never had a boyfriend or serious relationship.

22. sometimes i like being around extroverts because they make me feel less shy.

23. i've played the violin for 9 years, and baroque music is my favorite genre to play.

24. although i love playing classical music, i can't stand listening to it.

25. people also say that i sing very well, but i'm too shy to sing in front of people i don't know.

26. my brother and i were once called twins. i guess this is because we used to look alike, and because we always get along so well and almost never argue.

27. my mother sent my brother and i to private school because she believed the elementary schools in our town were crappy. she was right.

28. when i was 12 i took the john hopkin's test to determine if i belonged in a gifted program. my low math scores kept me out.

29. i have been involved in web design for around 3 years, and it is a hobby that consumes most of my free time.

30. i used to take horseback riding lessons when i was younger.

31. things were going well until it was suggested that i ride double bare-back on a draft horse.

32. being the ever-graceful person that i am, i fell on my butt.

33. the other girl, however, managed to stay on.

34. i didn't take many more lessons after that.

35. i have a fear of bees, yet i've never been stung.

36. although it may not seem like it, i'm very emotional.

37. i often act like nothing bothers me, but actually i am very sensitive and i will cry over things that other people might consider insignificant.

38. it took me years to learn to open up to people, but i still have a hard time trusting people.

39. i dream of getting married, someday.

40. i would like to have my wedding ceremony on the beach or in a vineyard, so i can be close to nature.

41. i could never live where it's hot and humid all year long.

42. i find the northern united states to be more appealing than the south and west, in both climate and aesthetics.

43. i don't plan on ever having my own children, but i would consider adopting.

44. if i did adopt a child, i would want just one daughter.

45. i am strongly pro-choice, even though i don't agree that abortion is always the best choice. i think the decision should be left up to the individual woman, not the government.

46. i was raised in a semi-strict christian household, but i don't think i ever completely believed in what i was taught.

47. during high school i began doubting a lot of what i was told, so i prayed to god to help turn me back in the right direction.

48. when i recieved no answer from 'god', i decided i should follow my brain instead.

49. i soon became a hardcore atheist, and took delight in challenging my peers' beliefs.

50. later i realized what an asshole i probably was, so i decided not to bother unless someone challenged me first.

51. i rarely ever enter debates, but when i do, i can always defend myself without much effort.

52. ironically, i dislike public speaking of any kind because i have extreme stage fright.

53. i was also elected as historian of my school's drama club, but i declined when i realized that i had too much stage fright to act.

54. i'm no longer in the drama club, needless to say.

55. i dislike people who put up a facade when they are online, so i try to keep my 'online persona' as true to life as my real persona.

56. i think the only difference is my online persona is much more outgoing and friendly than my real persona.

57. i am normally very reserved and quiet, especially in social situations, where i can become even more introverted.

58. i always chose to work alone when the class was assigned group activities, because i was too scared to introduce myself to others.

59. as a result, people assumed i was a snob and did not wish to associate with them.

60. i was also accused of being a snob because i lived in the so-called "rich neighborhood".

61. i did not spend much time socializing in grade school. i would hear my acquaintances talk about sex, and i would become very uncomfortable because i often did not know what they were talking about and felt embarrassed that they knew things i did not. ^^;

62. i'm usually more comfortable giving advice than taking it.

63. i have not yet had actual sexual intercourse. ^^;

64. sometimes, i feel like i will be doomed to being a virgin forever as a result of being single. -_-

65. even if i was 80 and still a virgin, i would not have sex with someone unless i truly loved him.

66. while most of my views are very liberal, my morals are more on the conservative side.

67. i still hold no definite religious beliefs, but i believe that 'religion' and 'spirituality' are two entirely different things.

68. because i do not think science holds the answers for everything, most hardcore atheists think i am doing a disservice to them.

69. i find that atheists do not like to be told that they are often as dogmatic as the religious people they claim to dislike. ^^;

70. i would like to become a vegan, but i can not give up my love of chicken or dairy products. ^^;

71. i do not approve of animal testing for any reason other than medical science. i prefer to buy products that are not tested on animals if at all possible.

72. i often feel like i would fit in better during a different time in history. possibly the 60's, but the drugs wouldn't interest me. ^^;

73. my mother got contacts for me because she was convinved i would not wear my glasses anymore. in reality, they constantly gave me a headache, so i didn't wear them often. ><

74. i like to experiment with cosmetics, but i can never achieve the dramatic looks shown in magazines. i always end up looking like a clown whore. ^^;

75. i had to start wearing a bra in 5th grade, and even by then i was a 34B.

76. i do not believe in cosmetic surgery of any kind, and i think the lengths people go to achieve "perfection" are very foolish.

77. i do not have a very high view of myself, and i am always pointing out flaws.

78. i love to swim, but i feel very self-conscious in a bathing suit.

79. my personal element is air, although my sun sign element is fire. i can't say i feel NO connection to fire, but air just has more appeal to me.

80. rainy days are more preferable to me than sunny days.

81. i also feel a strong connection to water.

82. sometimes i wish i could escape into a fantasy world where everything has a happy ending.

83. i daydream a lot and often lose track of time while doing so.

84. i still believe in love, but i do not think it is as perfect and wonderful as people (movies and television) make it out to be.

85. i think love is about finding someone who will accept you for who you are, and not try to change you to become their "perfect mate". love is not about perfection, but about accepting the good AND bad about someone, because without bad times, there would be no reason to appreciate the good times.

86. i often feel like i will never find someone to love, and love me back.

87. other times, i'm optimistic that i will find someone in my future.

88. i often feel helpless and i would like to learn some method of self-defense.

89. unfortunately, often i feel helpless simply because i am a woman. because while we can hold jobs, run companies, and manage families, we still cannot fully prevent rape.

90. i sometimes think that women bring a lot of pain onto ourselves. we say we don't want to be treated like sex objects and then we prance around half-naked. women in general annoy me, but i don't think i would like being a man.

91. i love my mother, but she and i are not all that close. she wanted a "normal" daughter, and she got me instead. ^^;

92. my father and i get along very well, and we understand each other. he's got many of the same kinds of quirks and eccentricts i do, and our views are similar on many topics.

93. i enjoy the art and stories of anime/manga, since they show that imagination can take on a whole new meaning.

94. i'd like to visit conventions, and pursue cosplaying.

95. even if i lose my interest in anime/manga, i am still fascinated by traditional japanese culture as well as japanese pop-culture, and i still hope to visit japan one day.

96. while i adore most aspects of japanese pop-culture, american pop-culture annoys the hell out of me.

97. i love goth fashion and i considered going 'goth', until i realized that shopping at hot topic didn't make me any less "trendy" than the people across the mall at abercrombie & fitch.

98. when i was younger i did not like myself, so i often emulated certain classmates i looked up to as well as fictional characters i admired because i thought i would like myself if i could become someone else.

99. i felt better after i could finally accept and love myself for who i am than i ever felt when i was trying to be someone i wasn't.

100. i wonder if anyone has taken the time to read this entire survey. ^^;

2002-05-05T01:52:00.000-04:00

look! it's a replica of cloud's buster sword. what a perfect cosplay accessory. although...i just want it because i like cloud. ^~

*makes kitty eyes* won't someone buy it for me?

2002-05-03T15:43:00.000-04:00

which royalty are you? find out! by nishi.

"as a princess you recognize there is so much about the world you need to learn. you may sometimes be naive but other times you are wise beyond your years! you are sharp, observant, joyous, and interested in your own personal growth. you have a very caring heart, and are a sweet and beautiful woman."

2002-05-03T15:27:00.000-04:00

what never ending story character are you?
yeah, ceni did this.

ara, another one of my favorite childhood movies. ^^ i always found the child-like empress enchanting. hmm...does she remind anyone else of emeraude-hime? (middle) i suppose it's because they're both ages old, are child-like in appearance, and are of royalty. maybe CLAMP based emeraude-hime off the child-like empress? who knows. ^~

2002-05-02T15:41:00.000-04:00

behold! the singing kittay which brings me much enjoyment. :D

still bored? go here too. :B nyo ho ho...

2002-04-12T19:03:00.000-04:00

you know, i really love having a cd burner. i get to create the music i like in whatever kind of arrangement i want. and guess what! i don't have to waste my money either. >_< sure, i still support my favorite artists and buy their cd's. but the domestic music companies need to realize that $20 for one cd with only 12 songs is a rip-off. especially when i don't even like most of those 12 songs.

2002-04-07T22:21:00.000-04:00

i was bored, so i made dolls for everyone. if you like them, you guys can put them on your livejournals or whatnot. ^^;

me!

jenny!

kate!

darren!

jess!

dollmakers are just so much fun, aren't they? ^~

2002-03-29T00:12:00.000-05:00

nine things you wear daily:
1. undies
2. pajamas
3. quartz ring
4. contacts
5. my pendent/ring necklace (yes, the "rinoa rip-off" one...eventhough i don't like her. ^~)
6. shoes
7. perfume/bodyspray
8. earrings (the silver swirl ones i never take out)
9. chapstick or lip gloss

eight movies you'd watch over and over:
1. legend
2. moulin rouge
3. utena: adolescence mokushiroku
4. ever after
5. crouching tiger, hidden dragon
6. harry potter and the sorceror's stone
7. robin hood: men in tights
8. charlie's angels

seven albums that matter:
1. ayumi hamasaki "LOVEppears"
2. daft punk- "homework"
3. fatboy slim- "halfway between the gutter and the stars"
4. malice mizer - "merveilles"
5. two-mix - "bpm cube"
6. dir en grey - "gauze"
7. prodigy - "fat of the land"

six objects you touch every day:
1. computer
2. bed
3. headphones
4. keys
5. hairbrush
6. toothbrush

five things you do every day:
1. sleep
2. go online
3. listen to music
4. eat
5. brush my hair

four bands/singers that you couldn't live without:
1. ayumi hamasaki
2. two-mix
3. gackt
4. daft punk

three of your favorite songs at this moment:
1. dj encore "i see right though to you"
2. tenacious d "tribute (to the greatest song in the world)"
3. yoko kanno/mayaa sakamoto "kiseki no umi"

two people that have influenced your life the most:
1. my brother
2. ...myself?

one thing you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. true love

2002-03-28T23:38:00.000-05:00

Usagi Mochi loves
everyone in Livejournal!
Show your support of
originality today!

By kawaiimiaka

i'm aware that i don't have a livejournal, but i still support this.

2002-03-18T22:50:00.000-05:00

which nintendo character are you?

i get rescued by link! sweeeeet. XD and i loved zelda in the old nintendo cartoons and comics. she kicked much ass.

2002-03-18T15:13:00.000-05:00

yes, gay people should be allowed to adopt children!!!

2002-03-11T22:28:00.000-05:00

i can't seem to get enough of these quizes. who doesn't like learning about their personality? :B

what's your color?
"there are more colors of blue in the spectrum then any other color, but there can really be only two variations of blue... light or dark. light represents devotion while dark represents fanaticism. in your personality, you can really be one or the other. you specialize in harmony, and you are a very affectionate, romantic person. you crave relationships; you are artistic, sociable, and loving."

2002-03-11T21:54:00.000-05:00

VIOLET

you surround yourself with art and music and are constantly driven to express yourself. you often daydream. you prefer honesty in your relationships and belive strongly in your personal morals.

find out your color at stvlive.com!

this quiz seems to contradict the one i just took. i guess that's the kind of person i am. ^^

2002-03-11T21:37:00.000-05:00

planetary personality quiz
"you are structured saturn! saturn is the planet of responsibility and discipline, and you couldn't be more reliable if you tried. you're ambitious and hardworking, and you have endurance to spare. because you're realistic and practical, you work especially well in structured environments. your friends are amazed by how organized, patient, and put-together you are. in love, you value stability, and you're extremely loyal to the person who has earned your respect. while it's admirable to be so diligent and self-disciplined, know that life's too short not to break the rules every once in a while."

2002-03-11T21:31:00.000-05:00

i'm a j-pop fangirl
sure i don't understand what they're saying, but it's cool and i want to be cheeky like hamasaki ayumi

what kind of fangirl are you?

when it comes to ayumi, but of course! :3

2002-03-03T23:05:00.000-05:00

staying awake for 24+ hours really does stuff to your mind. XD i think i'm going to sleep now.

2002-02-26T21:44:00.000-05:00

are you addicted to the internet?

69%

hardcore junkie (61% - 80%)

while you do get a bit of sleep every night and sometimes leave the house, you spend as much time as you can online. you usually have a browser, chat clients, server consoles, and your e-mail on auto check open at all times. phone? what's that? you plan your social events by contacting your friends online. just be careful you don't get a repetitive wrist injury...

2002-02-26T21:33:00.000-05:00

after many days of pacient waiting, i finally recieved my ayumi hamasaki cd's the other day. i ordered her "LOVEppears" cd, and the maxi singles for "vogue" and "far away" from yesasia.com. eventually i want to get the maxi singles of "monochome", "audience", and "m" (i also want "fly high", but it seems to be out of print). i have some of the mp3's, but i always like to support my favorite artists and buy their cd's as well. i adore ayu. she's so cool... she's gorgeous, but realistic. she doesn't look or sound fake like other pop stars i could mention. *cough*britneyspears*cough* and her lyrics are great, in both english and japanese (considering that she also writes all her songs as well). i would give almost anything to see her in concert. *worship* :D

2002-02-26T20:55:00.000-05:00

which my little pony are you?

DUDE! i loved my little ponies when i was younger. i probably still have a huge box of them somewhere around here. :D

2002-02-26T20:48:00.000-05:00

*giggles* (copy and paste the url if tripod is being lame. *kills all free web servers*)

2002-02-18T16:24:00.000-05:00

what ayumi hamasaki song are you?

2002-02-18T15:05:00.000-05:00

*roflmao*

2002-02-17T19:35:00.000-05:00

i took the inner dragon online quiz and found out I am a white dragon on the inside.

if there ever was an apparition of balance, power and reclusive intelligence, my inner dragon is it. whites are a fairly common dragon and are considered one of two harmonious dragons. my anti-thesis is the evil black dragon. together, we embody the yin and yang concept of eastern religions (especially taoism).

my inner dragon likes to think things out, plot against enemies, and look down upon the world from the highest mountain peaks. my favorable attributes are the day, the sun, truth, a positive attitude, and helpful magic. humans only need fear me when they stray into my domain without proper tribute. of course, that tribute would probably be a cake the size of a volkswagen, but hey, if they wanted to move through my turf they should have brought it, right? if someone ever really wanted a fight i'd be an impressive opponent, considering i pack a breath weapon combination of fire and lightning. even the nicest dragons can do some serious damage.

2002-02-17T19:28:00.000-05:00

Take the What Color Dragon Should You Ride? Quiz

2002-02-15T15:55:00.000-05:00

I was meant to be a member of pierrot! I'm not too wild, but not too bland, either -- just the right mix of both, and a well-kept secret.

which j-rock band should you be a member of?

oh, and darren...isn't malice mizer great? both jenny and i find "illuminati" to be our favorite song. ^~ and i see you got dir en grey on your quiz. i lava dir en grey! :D

2002-02-15T14:59:00.000-05:00

i was contemplating writing a list of reasons why valentine's day sucks, but i don't feel like it anymore. most of them people have already heard before, and the holiday's over already. besides, what's the point? as a holiday it doesn't make me at all depressed, but it's completely pointless. and i don't see myself wasting time over something i don't care about.

but anyway, i have better things to think about...like what ps2 games to buy over vacation. *dances* XD

2002-02-13T21:35:00.000-05:00

i took the what mythological creature are you? test!

2002-02-12T22:43:00.000-05:00

stolen from kate! :D

have you ever been to a wax museum? if so, which one? yes, when i was younger. i don't remember anything else, which is probably a good thing.
do you know what a luna bar is? no.
are you scared of heights? nope. skydiving, anyone? XD
are you hungry right now? no, i just had dinner.
have you ever been face to face with a rattlesnake? no. i try to stay away from wildlife with fangs. :B
did you work today? no. it might help if i had a job, i suppose. ^^;
do you feel more awake or asleep right now? i'm quite tired.
have you ever been to a six flags theme park? no
do you like the smell of cigarette smoke? no, it's a disgusting and rancid smell.
do you like the smell of pot smoke? any kind of drug smoke i find repulsive.
do you own any real stuffed animals? they're all real, as far as i can tell. well, that stuffed dragon does look a little sketchy. XD
do you ever look in the mirror and you don't recognize yourself? sometimes, yes.
do you have a container full of spare change? yes, but it's rolled. i'm a dork. :B
do you have any out of the ordinary talents? i can wiggle my ears. *wiggle* XD
are you tired of the town you live in? yes and no. i like it because it's quiet, but there's also nothing to do here. unless you like fast food restaurants. XP
do you wish it was christmas time again? if it would make people treat eachother more kindly, then yes.
has anyone close to you died recently? thankfully, no.
would you rather be male or female? i'm not sure. both have their pro's and con's, but i'm happy with being a female for the most part. ^^
did you have a nanny when you were young? nope.
have you ever eaten squid? no, but i'd like to!
do you fix elaborate meals often? no. i'm a terrible cook, and most things i make usually turn out burnt a lá mode. ^^;
have you ever gotten severely burned? how? yes, while in florida. my skin's pale, so i always burn instead of tan.
do you know your next door neighbors well? when i was younger.
are you fond of practical jokes? if their tasteful.
do you obsess over nothing? occasionaly, if i'm moody.
have you ever bottle fed an orphaned animal? yes. a kitty. ^^
which country seems the most mysterious to you? the chezck republic. i don't know, there's just something daringly mysterious about messing with a country's name. XD
do you have a nice view from your bedroom window? not really. all i can see is a street and a wall of trees.
do you pay most your bills on time? i don't have any! yay!
do you ever eat raw spinach? no. :P
have you ever sealed a message in a bottle and then thrown it into a body of water? no, but thank you for asking, mr. sparks. XD
would you rather be a politician or a flower child? either, if they promote peace.
is there a nuclear waste site near your home? where our power plant is, i believe.
have you ever been kicked out of a restaurant for being unruly? no
have you been hypnotized? no
are you involved in some kind of treatment program or therapy? nope.
when you think of new zealand, what comes to mind? startling green grass. :O
do you play poker? no, i've never played. ^^;
have you ever gotten inside or behind a waterfall? yesh, and it was wonderfall. XD
do you appreciate simplicity? yes, i love it. i find simplicity very poignant.
do you judge others too harshly? probably. but it's usually because i think other people are judging me even moreso.
do you know how to sew? no, but i wish i did for cosplay. :D
do you believe in angels? ever seen one? no, considering they're not real.
do you donate money to any charities? my family helps run an MDA telethon each year. so yes, i guess so. ^^
do you have a lifestyle completely different from that of your parents? since i'm less than half their age, and i go to school, i'd venture "yes".
have you ever retrieved something desirable out of a garbage dumpster? i haven't stopped to look. -_-
when was the last time you changed a baby's diaper? never, since i refuse to go near babies.
do you like quinoa? i'll have to agree that it sounds too much like "rinoa". :P
do you avoid aluminum? yes, it's my fatal weakness.
if you could eat only one food daily for the rest of your life and not gain weight, what would it be? chocolate, eventhough i'd get sick of it. :9
can you do a handstand? sure, if i try hard enough.
have you witnessed a miracle? no. i don't believe in "miracles" or anything supernatural.
does love make you blind? if i fall in love, i would hope not.
have you ever been hit by the opposite sex? no
have you ever slept in a hammock? yes, many times. XD

2002-02-11T20:31:00.000-05:00

ok, i don't get this. why isn't envy.nu letting my images load? i understand that the site is slow due to all it's users, but this is ridiculous. i've had it with freeservers. :\ i want my own domain.

2002-02-07T19:24:00.000-05:00

what's your name? caitlyn
what do you wish your name was? yuki! ^^
how are you? peachy.
would you ever eat sushi? the question is, would i ever NOT eat sushi? XD
would you ever eat sushi off a naked body? ...i guess it depends on whose body it is and where the sushi is placed. ^^;
have you considered homosexuality? i've thought about it.
what's your sexual preference? human... no apes or neanderthals, please.
what were you in a past life? if i believed in reincarnation, i'd have to say a horse or tiger.
what's your favorite coffee? mocha frappachino
what's your political perspective? liberal/democrat
do you consider yourself a poet? not really. i've tried writing some before, but even my rhyme schemes look like that of a four-year-old's.
what do you want to be when you grow up? happy and successful, i guess.
what's your favorite fruit? strawberry or kiwi.
what do you think about contemporary art? i'm always willing to look at something different, and i appreciate all forms of art. some doesn't appeal to me as much, though.
do you like being naked? erm, no. i'm pretty self-conscious.
if we had proof god didn't exist, what would happen? for me, i don't think anything would change.
are you left handed or right handed? right
are you smart? i would hope so.
what's your middle name? himitsu desu!
how many personalities do you have? you know as many as i do.
how many piercings do you have? one in each earlope. i'd like to get them double-pierced. wow, i'm dangerous.
are you superstitious? nope
do you read your horoscope? only from astrology books and certain places online. i know, i'm picky. ^~
do you believe in that stuff? i find astrology to be fascinating; however, i do not base any of my daily activities on astrology.
can you do a cartwheel? sadly, no.
do you have contact lenses? on saturday i will. i'll be able to see. ph33r!
do you have a retainer or braces? nope. i'm the lucky one in my family who doesn't have screwed up teeth.
can you drive? badly. ^^;
do you snore? not that i know of.
do you drool in your sleep? probably, yes.
do you like onions? no
do you like cotton candy? no. the sugar hurts my teeth. :X
what instruments can you play? the violin, and the recorder...or what songs on it i can remember from elementary school.
do you like to dance? only when playing ddr!
do you like to sing? yes, i lava singing! XD
do you like to talk on the phone? not really. i never know what to say.
do you like where you live? i don't particularly like my town, but i love new england.
are you organized? i'm better about it in some areas more than others.
are you shy? yes, but not as much as i used to be. i'm extremely shy in crowded social situations.
do you talk to yourself? constantly.
are you a morning person? nope
are you a virgin? ^^;; yes.
are you proud of that? well...i suppose...i don't go shouting it in the streets, however.
do you believe in reincarnation? presently, no.
do you believe in god? no
do you believe in ghosts? no
how old do you wish you were? i'm pretty happy just being my current age.
what will you name your daughter/son? i don't know if i'll have children, but if i did, i'd probably name them something japanese.
if you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and what would it be? the japanese kanji for "snow" on my ankle.
what color is your floor/carpet in your room? ...it's tan, with olive flecks in it.
what was the last cd you bought? i believe it was a fatboy slim cd called "the norman cook collection".
how did you spend last summer? i spent a few weeks at a lake resort in minnesota with my relatives, and a week with my sister in connecticut.
when was the last time you showered? a few hours ago.
are you tired? yes
are you lonely? no
are you happy? yes, at the moment.
are you wearing pajamas? yes
are you talking to someone online? no
what are the initials of your crush/interest? none, since i don't have one.
what is your astrological sign? sagittarius
what is the sign of your crush/interest? none

2002-02-06T23:18:00.000-05:00

blech. what abomination decided to give britney spears her own movie? puke.

2002-02-04T20:36:00.000-05:00

...cramps aren't fun. -_-

2002-02-04T17:03:00.000-05:00

you know, people call me odd for not watching the superbowl. even if our team did win, i simply don't care. i can't stand watching professional team sports, so it doesn't really come as a suprise. and i'm not really partial to sweaty men jumping on eachother trying to run after a piece of pigskin either. XP it's not like the superbowl offers much anyway...unless of course, you're a member of the horny male population who watched the playmates. oh, give me a break.

2002-02-03T15:12:00.000-05:00

2002-02-02T21:11:00.000-05:00

my hobbit name? orangeblossom moss of lake-by-downs. r0axrz.

2002-02-02T13:08:00.000-05:00

jenny and I went and saw "kung ho" yesterday at the movies. it was as hilarious and good as "black hawk down" was horrible and bad. that was the worst movie i have ever seen in my life. it got pretty old after the 300th person got shot, beaten to death, or blown up. i was ready to scream out "stop dying!" after that point. >_< the amount of blood, gore, severed body parts and operations using bare hands was completely disgusting. why would anyone want to see this movie? do they like seeing people die? or just war itself? i've yet to figure it out.

2002-01-31T23:35:00.000-05:00

"thought above feeling and mind over matter are your mottos. others come to you for advice and guidance. some see you as introverted and snobbish, but they are merely jealous of your common sense knack to think things through. don't be afraid to listen to your heart though."

2002-01-30T17:05:00.000-05:00

Which member of Morning Musume are you?

hrm...I wish I had gotten Yuko. She's my favorite. Yuko is so coool!

2002-01-14T21:21:00.000-05:00

As you can see we've had our eye on you for some time now, Mr. Aragorn.

It seems you have been living two lives.

In one life, you're Aragorn son of Arathorn a king for a respectable kingdom,
you are the heir of Elendil, you have the sword Anduril and you help Arwen take
out her garbage.

The other life is lived in the woods, where you go by the ranger alias of 'Strider'
and are guilty of virtually every elf crime we have a law for.

One of these lives has a future, the other does not.

I'm going to be as forthcoming as I can, Mr Aragorn.

You're here because we need your help.

We know that you've been contacted by a certain individual, a wizard who calls
himself.. Gandalf.

Now whatever you think you know about this wizard is irrelevant.

He is considered by many authorities to be the most dangerous wizard alive. My
colleagues believe that I am wasting my time with you, but I believe you wish to
do the right thing. We're willing to wipe the slate clean, give you fresh start, and
all that we're asking in return is your cooperation in bringing a known ring to Mt Doom.

...

Yeah, wow, that sounds like a really good deal, but I think I got a better one.
How about I give you the finger, and you give me your daughter?

Mr Aragorn, you disappoint me.

You can't scare me with this Elvish crap, I know my rights, I want my woman!

And tell me Mr Aragorn, what good is my daughter if you are unable to...

2002-01-06T22:40:00.000-05:00

gee, it's been what...forever and I day since I last updated? :P I really feel like just getting rid of my blog. I don't feel like it serves any purpose, which it doesn't. Eh.

Anywho, Chistmas was fun for all. Here's all the lovely presents I got!

Gameboy Advance
Final Fantasy 10
Magic Knight Rayearth manga vol. 2
a new ski jacket (I don't ski, but I like the jackets)
a new "dream meanings" book
Border's gift card
a purdy antique music box

The rest is mostly cash and gift cards, most of which I've spent already. ^^; Huzzah!

2001-12-21T00:45:00.000-05:00

I got a wonderful gift from my secret santa today (it was for my orchestra class) which was a green tea "pamper kit". They must have been reading my mind. *^^* It has shampoo, shower gel, body lotion, and a scented candle, all in the wonderful scent of green tea. I do so love it. XD

In other news, tomorrow is our last day before vacation. I'm not that exausted, but a break will be very nice and relaxing...

2001-12-12T20:03:00.000-05:00

*points* bwahaha! XD

Oh yes, happy birthday to me! Yesterday, that is. *^^* buy me something!

2001-12-09T22:18:00.000-05:00

It finally snowed last night! Even if was only a dusting. :P But still, why does it all have to melt the next day? -_-

2001-11-28T15:57:00.000-05:00

if i were a stone, i would be... an opal
if i were a tree, i would be... a japanese maple
if i were an insect, i would be... a ladybug
if i were a bird, i would be... a nightingale
if i were a mammal, i would be... a tiger
if i were a machine, i would be... a computer
if i were a fruit, i would be... a kiwi
if i were a vegetable, i would be... an eggplant
if i were a kind of weather, i would be... snow
if i were a mythical creature, i would be... a pegasus
if i were a musical instrument, i would be... a piano
if i were a kind of profession, i would be... a manga author/artist
if i were a color, i would be... cerelean blue
if i were a fragrance, i would be... gardenia blossom
if i were an emotion, i would be... cynical
if i were a sound, i would be... a rainstorm
if i were an element, i would be... water
if i were a holiday, i would be... yule
if i were a fictional character, i would be... aya mikage
if i were a car, i would be... a toyota echo
if i were anything in the world, i would be... a goddess ^~

2001-11-18T22:39:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I had a blast. :D I went to Kate's house for early Thanksgiving, and we goofed around and had fun. :B Wubba is cuddly. *^^* Then I went and saw the Harry Potter movie, which r0aXed, yo! XD All the scenes they included from from the book were just like I imagined, and the Quidditch scene was the best of all. Maybe it was just me, but I didn't imagine them going so fast while they were playing Quidditch in the book. But in the movie they all went about 200 miles per hour, and it was awesome! XD The actors were all really good too...so go see it now, f00!

2001-11-15T16:04:00.000-05:00

I wuv my mom. :3 She bought us Harry Potter tickets for Saturday because she knew I wanted to see it so much. Yes, I'm a dork. :P And I saw the Utena movie at Jenny's. It was awe-inspiring yet at the same time massively confusing. ^^; I must watch the English version and the version with the director's commentary to help me understand it better. I always have a hard time understanding things like this that are drowning in symbolism. ^^; And Kate, thanks (although late) for taking my survey I had here, you rock. :D

2001-11-13T21:23:00.000-05:00

how sad...

2001-11-07T19:30:00.000-05:00

w00t! I just won an uber-cool Ayashi no Ceres cellular phone strap off ebay. It's purdy blue and has keychains of Aya and Tooya on it. Now all I need is a cell phone. :\

2001-10-26T16:36:00.000-04:00

Ow, ow, ow...pain. Today I had gym in school, but I thought I had another class instead, so I forgot to bring clothes. Luckily my friend Anne lent me some clothes, but the sneakers she gave me were too small. She has size 6 feet, while I'm a bigfoot at size 9. But no one else had any extra sneakers, and I had only brought sandals. So of course we had to run the mile in gym, and my feet felt like they were being squeezed in a trash compactor. XO When I got home I used up about 10 bandaids per foot. This one blister on my left foot is the size of a quater and hurts like a motherfucker. :\ I really need some help remembering stupid stuff like this.

2001-10-25T15:30:00.000-04:00

After my long absence, I come back with...a new survey! XD

i am happiest when: my whole family is around.
i feel loneliest when: i realize how much time i spend by myself.
the ideal relationship would be: one that I'm happy in and wouldn't feel pressured at all.
what makes you cry? sad stuff. ha ha ha.
introvert or extrovert: more introverted... but i can be extroverted sometimes
do you think too much? thinking? what's that? owww... brain hurts.
if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? need you ask? JAPAN! ^^;
a famous person you would like to meet: drew barrymore!
pro-life or pro-choice? pro-choice... f00!
are you a vegetarian? nope. i happen to like a diverse diet. oh, i believe in this little thing called the food chain too.
do you support the death penalty? if they're actually proven of doing the crime. so yeah, i guess.
do angels or demons exist? only inside the human mind.
what would you most like to be doing right now? making stupid jokes with my brother.
do you have any regrets? i always regret not saying certain things at times... but i think i'm too young to have many regrets. ^^
sex or love: love. if/when I get into a realationship, sex will definately not be what I'm looking for. :P
favorite scents: the air right after it rains, "cucumber melon" by bath & body works
what REALLY makes you mad? narrowminded people who refuse to listen to others' opinions.
favorite ways to waste time: using the internet.
if you won $50 billion, what would you do with it? donate some to the American Red Cross, build my dream house, travel around the world, buy lots of anime, etc.
what is your best quality? my singing talent.
are you currently in love/lust? negative, ghostwriter.
what's the craziest thing you have ever done? uhh... driving a car without a seatbelt. yeah, i live life on the wild side. whoo. -_-
any bad habits? never sleeping enough, forgetting directions, more i'll list later.
do you find it hard to trust people? it depends on the person.
do you ever doubt yourself? sometimes.
bath or shower: shower.
favorite season: winter. i love snow, the holiday season, and my birthday. ^^v
what is your favorite flavor? peanut butter or kiwi.
what is your favorite time of day? midnight and the early morning hours. I find everything to be very calm, and staying up gives me energy.
gold or silver: silver. too much gold is just... tacky.
silk or cotton: never really thought about it.
any secret crushes? ... *blink* gackt-sama?
if you could be the opposite sex for one day, would you do it? sure, why not?
what do you desire most in life? a secure future.
do you believe in destiny? yes, but i believe we control our own destinies.
is world peace attainable? as long as human beings are the dominant species? never.

2001-10-09T23:50:00.000-04:00

Ho ho! I live! >:D I've taken a brief absence from blogging for good reasons- you shalt learn soon! XD And many kudos for the song reccomendation Treyz! It's very spiffy and you're right- my kind of music! :B Toodles!

2001-09-22T13:36:00.000-04:00

I found a really great music site that focuses on old-school video game music- all remixed! :D They have some of my favourite old series, like MegaMan, FF VI, Super Mario Brothers, and Zelda, all of which were on the NES. I realize that some of these can be found on Kazaa, but specific one's your looking for might be hard to find. Enjoy!

2001-09-20T23:59:00.000-04:00

I think we all need a little humor right now.

2001-09-16T22:46:00.000-04:00

My parents and I just got back from driving Nathan to Chicago, which is why I didn't blog. It's really lonely here. Living as an only child with my parents is really...weird. :\ At least I got to see where Nate's staying though- I think it would have been a lot harder for me to have said goodbye without knowing where he was staying. I'm not very sad right now, but I'm afraid it's all going to sink in soon and I'll start acting grumpy and snappy. I sound like quite the wimp. :P I need to focus on the positive- he'll be back to visit on Thanksgiving!

2001-09-11T23:35:00.000-04:00

"We have lived too long in the sunlight of our own power and complacency, and now the night is upon us."

This is really fucking scary. And the way people keep tossing around that words "war" and "national attacking" doesn't exactly put me at ease either. Jesum Crum.

2001-09-11T15:16:00.000-04:00

Holy shit...What the hell is going on in our country?

2001-09-05T23:11:00.000-04:00

Well, the first day was okay, and I only had one small problem in my schedule. I signed up to take chorus as one of my electives, but it conflicted with with my morning chemistry classes, so I can't take it. Instead I'll be taking private voice lessons, which I really wanted to do much more. :D I think I'll take an art or computer graphics/web design course now, which I can finally do (I've taken orchestra and Latin for the past three years of high school, and we're only allowed two electives). I'm very dissapointed though because the teacher who started our first Japanese club in school last year has left. I was stupid for not joining last year, and now we may never have one again. ;_; Blagh.

2001-09-04T23:30:00.000-04:00

oops- I didn't mean to go so long without blogging. But I've been so busy- my family just had our annual MDA (Muscular Dystrophy Association) telethon with a bunch of our friends, and my sister come home for the weekend. Every year on labor day we're loaned a hall to do the telethon in, and all the kids go out and "play in the traffic" to collect money. >:D Back in the day (*roflmao*) I used to gets plenty o' money, and one year I even won a plaque as the award for "person to bring in the third most amount of money", which was about $12,000. :D And of course, (*drumroll*) I start school tomorrow. Even though I have nothing to worry about, I'm still nervous. :\ I guess I'm always nervous on the first day. Since my sleep schedule's still kind of screwy, now I must sleep. :O

2001-08-29T23:55:00.000-04:00

I just watched a really interesting show on hgTV about Asian-style houses and their influences on homes in America. I've always loved how Asian homes look, and really want to use the theme when I get an apartment or a house someday. The homes are very simple yet elegant, and look open and comfortable. I'd especially love to create a zen-type of garden that are so popular over in the East. The pebble walkways with large rock stepping-stones, raked stone gardens, along with ponds and large willow trees are so beautiful to me. *note to self: add "create dream house" to the list of things I must do in my lifetime!*

2001-08-27T23:49:00.000-04:00

Hey Treize, if you need help on books or poetry I'd suggest sparknotes, which is basically the online equivalent of Cliff's Notes, without the cost! :D They give summaries, character descriptions, symbols, double meanings (the stupid "hidden messages" in stories that teachers supposedly say are there) and plenty of explanations. It's very handy and useful, so I hope that helps. XD

2001-08-26T17:13:00.000-04:00

hmm...according to the human for sale quiz, I'm worth a whopping $1,899,460.00! Although I have no plan to sell myself any time soon, it's good to know these things, eh? Interesting question: would I be able to use my (almost) 2 mil once I've been "sold"? How intriguing. XD

2001-08-21T23:47:00.000-04:00

I just switched my old computer for my brother's (he just got a new comp for college) and I can see the differences already. His computer is much faster than mine was, and I've become very excited with some good news. Apparently his computer is fast enough to install a CD burner in it, so I'm saving up for one now. XD And I've affectionatly named my new computer "ichiban". I'm not sure what will happen to compy-chan. :\

2001-08-20T23:53:00.000-04:00

I'm back! XD But gosh I'm tired. Absolutley no child interaction/direct contact with/babysitting with kids for many years after this trip. There were about twenty of my relatives in one huge cabin (which was big enough- very open and pretty) and that included new-born twins, a rowdy 9 and 6 year-old, and a tempermental toddler. And apparently my aunts and uncles felt that I was the perfect candidate for annoying-brat sitting. XP I can't stand children- they smell, they scream, and they take away all the fun things about being older (aka actually getting to have a life and go out and do things). The rest of the vacation was fun, and the lake was very pretty. I even conned my mom and some of my cousins to go trail riding, which was nifty. :D I had a lovely chesnut mare named BK who liked to munch on plants along our trail. ^_^ I'm about to zonk out, so I'd better get to bed. ^^

2001-08-09T00:04:00.000-04:00

Tomorrow I'll be going to Minnesota (boring capital of the world) with my mom, and I'll be gone until the 19th. We're going to a Lake resort, so I doubt ther'll be any computer's handy. :P Unless I can somehow manage to get my sister to let me use her laptop. XD Oh, if I don't get a chance to reply to you, thanks for the computer tips Ian. ^^ And goodbye my faithful people- let us hope the internet world does not crash in my brief absence. >XD

2001-08-06T23:45:00.000-04:00

I hate when I fight with my mom. >_< We always fight about the stupidest things, and we end up screaming at each other for no reason at all. We don't usually fight that much, but my mom's been around every day now because she's looking for a new job. She quit her old job as a principal, and now she's applying for superintendant or curriculum coordinator at different schools. But she's all nervous about finding one, because we need to make the first payment for my brother's college tuition soon. I've been trying to be helpful and encouraging, but she's starting to stress me out. This morning I asked her if we could go downtown because I wanted to spend a gift certificate I had for a music store, and I wanted to drive (so I don't forget everything before my driver's test). She said fine, and I waited until about 6:00 tonight until I asked her again. She said that now she was "too tired" and that I should have asked earlier. Which I did! >_< Usually I wouldn't mind not going, but I've been cooped in the house for the last two weeks, and I must get out, or I'm going to go insane. ;_; I simply can't wait to get out of this damn house at the end of the week when we leave for vacation. XP

2001-08-03T00:02:00.000-04:00

I managed to free up 300 megs on my computer today, but I'm still having problems. When I reboot, windows always freezes up my desktop, so I can't even shutdown or restart correctly. >_< My brother offered to give me a free 4 gig hard drive if I switched to Linux and ditched Windows, but I don't really want to. I haven't had many problems with Windows up until now (which is only because I had no ram left) so I haven't dubbed it as being as evil as AOL yet. Hopefully I'll get this all fixed before I leave for vacation, or I'll be worrying about it the whole time. :P

2001-08-02T00:04:00.000-04:00

I heard some scary news tonight...apparently a hitchhicker/serial killer has been on the loose in my town, and he killed one person. x___x;;;; Holy frig, I even know the street he killed the guy on! Luckily he was caught today, but not before killing two other people in New Hampshire too. The story started when a college kid was found missing a couple days ago who lived a few towns away from mine. Totally unrelated, an old caretaker of a motel was found dead in New Hampshire a few days later. Then a day later a man picked up a hitch hiker at night in New Hampshire too, and the hitch hiker pulled a knife on him and told him to drive him somewhere, or else he would kill him. The guy made a smart move by slamming on his brakes and jumping out of the car, running away before the hiker could act. The hitch hiker couldn't find him, and the guy eventually got to a phone and called the police, who found and arrested the hitch hiker. He then confessed to the murder of the guy in our town, the old man, and he eventually told them where to find the body and car of the missing college kid. x___x;; But holy crap that was scary- not only was a serial killer running amuck killing people, but in MY town, and without anyone even knowing it!! @__@ This all happened in the course of about 5 days, but I still can't believe I (or a lot of other people) didn't know about it. Freakish. x__x;

2001-08-01T00:01:00.000-04:00

Good news DDR fans! More Dance Dance Revolution games are on the way! XD I've also found some very inexpensive dance pads on ebay. w00t!

2001-07-31T00:09:00.000-04:00

Time sure does go by fast...I can't believe July's over already! @_@ Before you know it, I'll be saying that about August too. Blech, another boring year of school coming up. :P At least I can look forward to the trip I'll be taking before school starts again. Hooray! :DD

2001-07-29T23:41:00.000-04:00

Well, I've finally finished driver's ed. I've been driving with my dad every morning to my classes, so I think I've gotten a lot better. All I have left are my driving hours. I'm kind of nervous though; I know we'll be going on the highway (which I haven't been on yet) but I don't know who will be my driving instructor. I hope it's the same guy who taught my class. Anywho, I don't like high speeds (they scare me! lol) so I just hope I don't crash. @__@

2001-07-27T23:49:00.000-04:00

What's wrong with my computer? Why does it keep crashing? Is my hard drive going to crash too? How come my programs keep shutting down? Did it get a virus I don't know about? Why can't I get anything to work? Please, I need some answers. ;_;

2001-07-23T20:01:00.000-04:00

Survey time! I've seen this floating around in a couple other blogs recently. ^_^

7 things you are afraid of:
1. losing my family.
2. rape.
3. growing up.
4. being truly intimate with someone.
5. pregnancy.
6. war.
7. bees. ^^;

7 things that make you laugh:
1. "robin hood: men in thights".
2. my brother.
3. the simpsons.
4. "that's my bush!" and other shows on the comedy channel.
5. will ferrel and molly shannon on snl.
6. all your base are belong to us.
7. inside jokes that no one else gets.

7 things that make you cry:
1. death.
2. love.
3. betrayal.
4. sacrifice.
5. animal abuse.
6. books.
7. movies.

7 things you love:
1. the internet.
2. singing.
3. thunderstorms/snowstorms.
4. when someone does something nice for me or gives me an unexpected gift.
5. being in a really good debate.
6. getting one of my friends interested in something I really like that they normally wouldn't.
7. listening to my favourite music.

7 things you don't understand:
1. people and human nature.
2. the whole fascination with boy bands.
3. people who refuse to question their religion.
4. homophobia.
5. why people critisize things that are different or not "mainstream".
6. people who use violence to solve problems.
7. american politics.

7 random facts about you:
1. i've been to 5 different schools up to high school.
2. i'm the only one in my family not to have braces.
3. i'm not allergic to anything.
4. i've had 12 different animals growing up, including a horse and a chipmunk.
5. i am the youngest of three children; i have one older sister and older brother.
6. i like to write, but i'm so scatterbrained that i can never organize my ideas and compose a story.
7. my favourite scent is "cucumber melon" by bath & body works.

7 things to do before you die:
1. become successful in a career i love.
2. get married.
3. become fluent in at least one other language.
4. visit japan.
5. make a personal cd of songs i've produced.
6. meet my online friends.
7. write, illustrate, and publish my own manga.

2001-07-20T22:20:00.000-04:00

This is interesting; a website dedicated to kogals. I just find this funny, because I happen to think that kogals are just cheesy but funny and cute. ^^; Kogals have only started becoming popular in Japan, but I guess you can see them everywhere now. You can tell a kogal apart from the other girls because they'll be carrying around cell phones, wearing insanely high platform shoes, very bizarre or the latest clothing style, and very light-colored makeup. (sometimes to frightening degrees. x_x;) I still think they're cute though, and like I said- very, very funny. XD

2001-07-19T22:21:00.000-04:00

Ok, honestly- what the hell does "p|-|33r /\/\Y $|< iLLz, f00!" mean? Call me an idiot, but this secret internet-language thing people are using is confusing as hell, not to mention pretty third-gradish. I've only used some simple words that I've picked up like "r0arxz" ("roars", anyone? It wasn't that hard for me to figure out, so I didn't think it would be so hard for other people.) but the rest of this crap is pretty much undecipherable. Does this come from some sort of clique that finds themself "cool" by using scrambled letters and numbers to act like they know nothing about English grammar? Gee, sign me up right away! ‹/sarcasm› I wouldn't mind people using this so frequently if they would just put up some kind of information or "translation" page so the rest of us know what they're broken slang actually means. Keeping others like myself in the dark is not only inconsiderate, but also somewhat snobby. Sure, you don't have to tell anyone, but after awhile people are probably going to start questioning your intelligence/sanity, and are going to stop thinking it's "funny" or "cute" because they'll be fed up not knowing what the hell you're talking about.

2001-07-18T22:37:00.000-04:00

I finally got the first Harry Potter book today, and it's great! These books aren't just for kids. ^_^ I've wanted to read the series since I heard about it on the news and all. I also heard a lot of people say they really liked the books too (and yes, people my age) so I've been dying to get the first book. It's addicting, to say the least. ^^; Harry Potter r0arxz, yo! XD

2001-07-17T23:58:00.000-04:00

I saw part II of The Mists of Avalon on t.v. yesterday, although I never got to see the first part. I thought it was really good, although a lot of the minor characters didn't get much development. Then again, there's only so much of a huge story you can fit into a two-part miniseries. :P If I can, I want to get it on DVD or video too.

2001-07-17T01:01:00.000-04:00

For some reason, all I can think of lately is what I want to major in when I go to college. And I just can't decide. I have a lot of interests, but I don't know if I would want to make any one of them into my full-time career/job. Let's see; I like web design, world history/cultures, and I desperately want to learn Japanese. It's a big hope of mine. :D Oh, I love to sing too, but I don't see any music career in my future. ^^; So where does that leave me? Maybe I'll go to Japan, where I can speak the language, learn about the culture, and design websites. Yeah, right. ^_^ I've given up the idea of being a vet too, mostly because I can't stand the idea of dissecting something like my cat or my dog. ;_; Besides, med school is very expensive (not to mention long- at least 6 years) and you have to be smater than a rocket scientist to get in to any of those schools. But anyway, I most definatley want to go to a school that offers to teach courses on Japanese and the culture. It probably seems like I'm worrying about this way ahead of time (I'm not even a Junior yet) but I worry a lot about this kind of stuff. It's fun to think about though! :D

2001-07-14T21:49:00.000-04:00

Oops, I forgot to blog yesterday. Anyway, it was my parent's anniversary yesterday, so my brother and I took them out to their favourite Italian restaurant. I had some yummy pasta with grilled chicken. :9 My brother can now actually afford to buy an expensive dinner now too. Why can't I have mucho dinero like he does? Me thinks I need a job for me to get some. ^_^;

2001-07-11T23:50:00.000-04:00

On a side note, I really want to get the soundtrack to the movie too. The great j-rock band l'arc~en~ciel wrote the ending song, "Spirit Dreams Inside". If you don't buy it, I will! :D

2001-07-11T00:34:00.000-04:00

*yawn* I had a very tiring, but very rewarding day today. ^_^ Tonight my brother and I saw Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within movie at the private screening we won tickets for (the movie offically comes out tomorrow), and we had a good time, eventhough there were some frustrating setbacks. The show was for 7:15 in Boston, so we planned on arriving at around 6:40 to get good seats at the theater. My parents drove us, since they wanted to go to a restuarant in Boston, and because my mom is somewhat paranoid of the thought of my brother and I going to Boston alone. :P So we started out at 5:30, and before you know it, were stuck in traffic. Luckily, we got passed the cause of the traffic (apparently someone had plunged off the side of a ravine- no comment) in only about 20 minutes. However we then noticed the dark and looming sky ahead of us, and heard on the radio that there were severe thunderstorm warnings in our area. Anyway, to make a long story short, we ended up driving through pouring rain and lightning that was practically hitting the ground outside our car in Boston looking for the cinema. We found it eventually, though we went through several parking lots and rotaries. X_x; And we made it on time too! Amazing, huh? ^^ So Nathan and I got our seats, and then we had to wait about an hour for everyone to pile in the theater- about 50 people who were supposed to see the movie too couldn't fit in it was so packed. *cough* Anyway, I'm sure everyone's only interested in what the movie was like, not my trials and tribulations of getting there. ^^;;

Well, it was...good. And in some ways, not so good. All I can really say is that don't come in expecting something like one of the Final Fantasy games- I was, and the movie is really nothing like any of the games. I think I'm being too critical since I know the backgrounds of all the games, and I wanted nothing short of amazing from Square. Which in some ways, it was. Visually and audibly it was very good. Some scenes look just like something in real life, but the whole movie is just not quite real looking enough...you can mostly tell it's CG. But it was pretty close to it! ^_^ The story was really the only "problem", if you can call it that. ^^; In all aspects, it was everything a Square story is- interesting, intriguing, emotional, and very realistic coming from the characters. But I think they just tried to squeeze a plot into a movie that needed more than two hours. I have quite a few unanswered questions that could have been answered with more time. Basically it's like trying to fit a 40+ hour typical FF video game type of story into a two-hour movie. Aside from that, I thought it was different (in a good way) from the typical FF series plots. Although there were some rather blatant references to things like the Lifestream in FFVII (a very important point in the movie) and other things I don't want to spoil. ;D And a very familiar name is once again included in a Final Fantasy related subject from the series- "It's warm!" XDDD (lmao, you must see the movie to understand me.) I have no clue how people who haven't played any of the games is interpreting the movie, but it will be interesting to see how it does! I think that if I had never played an FF game, I'd still be very impressed. Eventhough it sounds silly, I really want this movie to do well, so more people will be exposed to the wonderful world of Squaresoft and Final Fantasy like myself and many fans have. That, and when I mention Final Fantasy around people, I don't want to hear anymore "Huh, what's that?" or "Never heard of it before in my life." or the like. >_< It just bugs me how people can be so clueless about something so great. ;_; It's about time that Squaresoft and Final Fantasy got some of the recognition it deserves from the mainstream America, dammit! *Ameka gets beaten by the rabid teenybopper loserlites and crappy American pop-culture fanatics* Iiyaa... X_x;; Anywho, I'm very sleepy and tired, so goodnight, pe0plxrs. (and "goodnight, moon") >:D

2001-07-09T21:08:00.000-04:00

I started driver's ed today, and I survived! ;D My class is ok (eventhough I don't know anyone) and there's only about 15 people. Our teacher's nice too, and pretty funny. I think he said he used to be a comedian. :D I wonder what made him choose to be a teacher after being a comedian? "The world may never know." Anyway, the only thing I'm worried about are the driving hours. I simply don't like to drive, and I'm not very good at it either. Especially when stangers are critiquing my driving and making me very nervous. XP Oh well- we still watch those cheesy 70's drinking and driving videos. High quality entertainment. *snicker*

2001-07-08T22:06:00.000-04:00

I was haunting fansview today and checking out many of the wonderful cosplayers and their costumes at Anime Expo! Although I'm unable to attend cons in California (because I'm halfway across the country and have no money) I still really wish I could go sometime. I hope that when I'm 18 I can at least go to some of the cons in Georgia, but I think that's planning a little too early. ^^ I really want to cosplay too though- I can see it easily becoming one of my next big hobbies. ^_^

2001-07-08T00:50:00.000-04:00

I have absolutely nothing to blog about today.

2001-07-06T01:22:00.000-04:00

And now like in so many other blogs I've seen, it's time to mash!

you live in a house.
you're married to heero yuy.
you drive a rav 4.
your car is the color white.
you live in the state vermont.
your honeymoon is japan.
your occupation is a teacher of japanese.
you have this many kids: 2 (1 male; 1 female).
ahh, memories...I remember this from middle school!

2001-07-05T02:27:00.000-04:00

Happy 4th of July everyone. I sound enthusiastic, don't I? ^_^ Actually, I had I nice, peaceful day, although no one in my family wanted to drive to the harbor nearby and see the fireworks. Lazy people. :P And why is it that we only get to see fireworks once a year? Can't they make some other random day during the summer important so I can see more of those pretty fireworks? :D Besides the obvious pretty fireworks, I am fairly patriotic. ^^; I like my country a lot- it's better than most third-world countries where they execute you for saying your opinion. Although our incompetant leaders in this country don't give me much hope. If you want to know what I think of George Bush, just watch "That's My Bush!" on the Comedy Channel. That's basically how I (and thousands of other people, apparently) picture George W. Bush. And in the words of John Steward of "The Daily Show" to gueststar Jet Li:
"Ok- we know our president is an idiot. And look, we want you to tell your president we're sorry. He can't help being stupid. Really." >XD

2001-07-03T22:14:00.000-04:00

w00t! My brother just won tickets for a private screening of Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within in Boston! XD I'm so excited- this is one of the movies I've been dying to see since around last year when they announced it. He won two tickets from a radio station, and of course I "convinced" him into taking me. ;D Besides, which of his friends is more Final Fantasy obsessed than me? None, exactly. We're going on Tuesday, one day before it's going to be released in theaters! I can't wait! XDDD

2001-07-02T23:16:00.000-04:00

This is absolutely disgusting. Are these people serious? I got an email from one of my friends and it was about this site, with a list of people who are protesting against it. If there's one thing I can't stand, it's cruelty to animals. You really have to be pretty screwed up in the head to do something like this. Ugh.

2001-07-02T01:09:00.000-04:00

My mom and I went to the mall today, and I got the last few of volumes of the Rayearth manga at Borders. I went to Weathervane too and got a couple shirts and shorts and some body spray and candles from Bath & Body works. I don't really like to shop at highly over-priced and overrated stores like Abercrombie & Fitch and the like, so that was about it for clothing stores (our local mall is very small) and unfortunatley we don't have a Delia's or Hot Topic (which I've heard is a lot like Delia's) anywhere near us. And I used some gift certificates in Weathervane and B&B, which I've had since Christmas. Am I slow or what? :P

2001-06-30T19:29:00.000-04:00

For some reason our power went off this morning, but it lasted all of three seconds. Odd, considering it's a perfectly nice day outside. Compy-chan here woke me up when it rebooted itself for the first time in 6 months- I never turn it off ^^; And since my family can't fix clocks, I get the lovely job of going around the house and setting all the clocks. Honestly, is it that hard to set a clock? I guess so.

2001-06-29T00:00:00.000-04:00

I never thought this would bother me, but my house is very lonely. I've always been used to having people around me and in the house- mostly my brother and sister- since I'm the youngest. I eventually got used to my sister being gone when she left for college, and it was just my brother and I most of the time (my parents work a lot). But now my brother has a full-time job, and it's basically me and the house. I actually like being alone, but not all the time. I try to go out and exercise, or call a friend to do something, but I'm still alone most of the time. Is this what it's going to be like next year when he's at college too? I honestly don't want to be in the spotlight, which being the youngest has given me the advantage not to be. I just don't like getting lots of attention; I like observing people more. In a lot of ways I guess I'll be "living by myself" next year as an only child. This will be...interesting.

2001-06-27T21:51:00.000-04:00

Oh, wow- fireflies! *girlish giggle* I went out running around dusk and when I got back home, they were lighting up my backyard! :D I tried catching one, but it was already so buggy out and I was all hot and gross. :P Besides, catching fireflies is more fun with at least two people. Eventhough I don't like summer that much, I love fireflies! ^_^

2001-06-26T15:11:00.000-04:00

Mmmm...strawberries! :9 I'm so glad I listened to my Mom last year and helped her plant a strawberry patch- now we have a huge patch! I didn't think they would grow well in our pesky soil, but I guess that shows how much I know about gardening. But for now, some strawberry shortcake!

2001-06-25T00:48:00.000-04:00

Well, what an entertaining evening I had. ‹/sarcasm› I was lucky enough to go to the movies, but unlucky in that I had to go see the atrocity named "The Fast and the Furious". "Gone in 60 Seconds" anyone? Yeah, it was like that and all those other nameless and utterly stupid fast-paced car movies from Hollywood. No, instead of getting to see something inovative like "Moulin Rouge" or even something somewhat interesting like "Tomb Raider" my friends came up with the bright idea that "hot guys" in the movie would make it worth seeing. I laughed. Eventhough fan service is not what I come to the movies for, even these "hot guys" were pretty ugly. Sweaty, dirty, and swearing "qualities" are not what I look for in any guy, thank you. Ok, so the cars go fast. Is that supposed to impress me or something? In some places in this movie I just cringed. For example, the whole big-overprotective-brother love thing. "You break her heart, I'll break your neck." Gee, that only pops up in what- every other movie made to date? I know that the focus of this movie wasn't the love story (or what there was of one) but anything original would be appreciated. I suppose if predictable plots, overdone action scenes, and boring characters are what you look for in a movie, go for it. Although I couldn't stop asking myself "is it over yet?" at least 10 times throughout the movie. And the only good song I heard was a techno song at a scene where there was a rave, and that was about it. I really need to see a good movie. X_x

2001-06-22T23:59:00.000-04:00

Wai wai! My Two-Mix shrine is open! ^_^ I'm so glad I got it done. Now children, go and bask in the glory! :D

2001-06-19T23:33:00.000-04:00

I think I should start a collection. I've never really collected much of anything, and the idea has always interested me a lot. There's just so much to choose from in the collection field. I love beach stuff, like sand dollars and starfish, but I'd be afraid of breaking them if I kept them out, and I wouldn't want to keep them in some box in my closet. Anime-wise there's so much to choose from- plushies, keychains, posters, figurines...I wouldn't know where to start. However, I do like collecting art. More like manga art! :DD It's just so pretty to me, and it's so different. I love finding really high-quality art online and such, a lot of which is from video games. Suprisingly, video games have some of the best and highest quality art. I'm extremely picky about what I collect though, so my collection grows very slowly. And many of the images I love can be seen in layouts. ;D

2001-06-18T11:23:00.000-04:00

I want to see Moulin Rouge so bad, but I have no money. *makes kitty eyes* Won't someone take me?

2001-06-17T23:57:00.000-04:00

I went to our drama club party today- it was the BEST party! I had so much fun. *^^* The party was at one of the seniors' houses, and it was absolutley beautiful. His house is right near a big pond, and his house itself is very old-fashoned and pretty. There was this gazebo outside that had a roof and wall made out of a criss-crossing pattern of wood, and there were flowers and vines growing all over it. It was so beautiful. The house is massive, and they had a pool and a canoe, a net for volibol and badmitton, a "game room" (with a pool table and ping pong table) and swings outside on these huge oak trees and everything. Gosh it was pretty. ^^ There were about 30 of us there, and we spent most of our time in the pool. Of course, we had to run out every hour or so because it was raining, and the lightning kept coming and going. :P But then we'd all run back in and start romping in the water again. ^_^ And while a bunch of us girls were talking while it was thundering, the guys filled a huge tub with water, and- suprise, suprise- snuck up on us and made us all wet. Did we care? No. We were already soaked. ^_^ But we got the guys back right before we left. Oh victory, how sweet it is. >;D